Pictures


I can see you smiling,
sitting on the couch.
Why there was so much strife
I could never figure out.
All I have are pictures,
some of them are in albums, 
but the best ones are in my head.
You were so handsome
and I was in awe,
you always smiled at me
and I loved you for it.
We didn't talk much; 
so many years separated us,
but there was a bigger gulf imposed on us;
one that we could not reach across.
A gulf of selfishness and pride
a gulf of secrets and sin
and no matter how you tried,
you could not bridge it.
You in your banishment
and I in my extreme youth;
there was nothing we could do
but smile at one another,
as if that were enough.
You will never know
how often I thought of you,
how I wanted to bridge the gap.
I often thought of calling you,
but feared falling into the trap,
of someone else's making.
So all I have are pictures, 
now that you are dead,
but that's all I had anyway.
Some pictures are in albums,
but the best ones are in my head.

For my bother Rob




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